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Another J&J cheese:

Istara Ossau-Iraty:  A classic French semi-hard cheese made from sheep's milk.  It's smooth, light, and creamy with just a slight hint of nuttiness. The flavors come in waves starting with a hint of salt at the beginning, progressing to the creamy sheep flavor, and ending with a rich tang.  The rind is exceptional and changes the experience considerably.  In other words, it's delicious. 

Thank you!

Liz and I are not on our way to Paris and Barcelona (we had tickets to leave today, but well, you know, the tumor decided otherwise), but that doesn't mean we're not eating good cheese.

Our good friends, John and Jamie P., sent us a surprise package with four cheeses.  The first:

Pierre Robert: an aged, pasteurized, cow's milk cheese from France.  Buttery rind, with a sweet, semi-hard inside.  Very smooth.  This 3.5 oz cheese lasted about 30 minutes before we finished it.  We're usually not like that with cheeses, but we couldn't help ourselves.

One down, three to go.  Thank you J&J!

My family is participating in this year's Phoenix Brain Tumor Walk on March 16.  If you're interesting in donating to this worthy cause, or participating, please do so by clicking on the link below:

Phoenix Brain Tumor Walk

What I learned in Portland this week:

- Women wear big giant glasses
- I'm in the beardless minority
- Single speed bikes or die
- Bikers are crazy
- If the forecast says rain, it probably just means cloudy
- On the off chance it does rain, it'll be mild
- No more leather soled shoes
- I've been to lots of cities where food trucks are the rage, but Portland is ridiculous.  Whole parking lots are dedicated to them (i.e., I saw one lot with almost 40 trucks crammed in)
- I didn't hear "cacau" once, but I wanted to say it, but not for the reason you think
- If I was a beer drinker, I'd be in beer drinkers heaven
- The people begging for money aren't nearly as aggressive as those in the SF Bay area
- Having a car is very inconvenient
- It has an awesome foodie reputation and I've eaten lots of good food, but haven't had anything special yet

More to come.

I'm a 39 year old male and had my transsphenoidal surgery at Barrow on January 23.  My tumor was a 3.7cm x 3.7cm x 3.7cm non-functional pituitary macroadenoma.  It had four oblations.  Unfortunately, two of the oblations remain post-surgery and I'll find out after my 3 month follow up MRI what we are going to do (i.e., radiation or a craniotomy).

Post-surgery, my endocrinologist told me that I have pan-hypopituitarism and have had to take testosterone and hydrocortisone.  I'm still debating whether the testosterone or cortisol withdrawal were worse.  The testosterone withdrawal made my skin burn and caused insane night sweats (i.e., I woke up in pools of sweat).  The cortisol withdrawal made me feel like I was going to pass out and die.

Additionally, I have a small csf leak (I take my temperature several times a day to make sure my temperature hasn't gone above 100), which tastes pretty awful, and my headaches are worse now as compared to pre-surgery.  I still have moments throughout the day when I feel woozy and need to take a break.  I also have real problems sleeping, as the headaches wake me up.  My average wake up time is 2:30.  The long days have given me the chance to watch almost all of Arrested Development (what a great show!).

All that being said, I'm much happier and calmer than I was just a week and a half ago.  I was an irritable mess.  My deepest apologies to those affected.

I shall now stand up and hope my back stops sweating.

Some interesting side effects:

- I can only really taste sweets right now.  Salty and savory are beyond me (temporarily).  I can get spicy, but only on the side of my tongue and it's just the heat, not the flavor.  Chipotle, which I love, was tasteless mush.  Good thing it's temporary.

- Man-o-pause: Hot flashes and night sweats (standing and just dripping).  Very treatable and in fact, I'm looking forward to it.

- It's amazing how much your mood and overall feeling of comfort is dependent on the pituitary.  Spatial awareness, balance, nausea, etc.  All the hormones that the balance these out for us are managed by this little pea sized gland.

The doctor wouldn't let me keep even a small piece of the parts of my tumor that he was able to remove.  He said even if he could give it to me, it had the consistency of oatmeal.  I always imagined it being more like a rubber bouncy ball. 

So the good news is

umm

well

oh, yes.  I wasn't part of the <.1% that die during surgery.  I know I should be more grateful.

The bad news is that I'll be back in three months for what appears to be some kind of awfulness.  Not even my pain meds can ease the dread of what's probably yet to come.

As you can tell, I'm feeling pretty emotional and sharing.  I probably was all along, but my tumor probably repressed my need to share my emotions.  So if I start crying on the phone or getting all emotional on you, it's not because something terrible is going to happen, it's because something amazing has been taken away.

Here's goodbye to my Vulcan self.

And always remember, Dirtbiking Saves Lives.

My surgery is on 1/23.  This surgery will be endoscopic transsphenoidal (i.e., through the nose).  Due to the size and placement of my tumor, particularly the nobules, there is an 90% chance I'll need a follow up surgery in 3 - 4 months via craniotomy (i.e., cut open the skull and create a bone flap).  My vision is pretty jacked up.  The surgery could make it worse. 

Despite all of this, I ate some amazing cheese this evening.

Rush Creek Reserve: An American cheese in the fashion of Vacherin Mont d'Or.  I'd need to do a side by side comparison to tell the difference.  Rush Creek Reserve seemed a little more smooth and less tangy.  It was delicious.

from a good friend.

"Studies have shown that some tumors are caused by compulsive masturbation on business trips. And the growth of said tumors is heightened when said masturbation happens when a fancy leather belt is placed around your neck.

I heard that's the kind of tumor you have. Is that true? Let me know because I want to write about you on my blog.



Hope you're gonna live dude."

I just watched a video of a 2.5cm pituitary tumor being removed.  Lots of cutting.  Then I made the mistake of reading more about my tumor's tentacles and where they are located.

Shit.

Latte Da Caerphilly - An American aged goat cheese.  Semi-hard cheese full of buttery goat flavor, with just a hint of almonds.  Very nice.

Every time I hear Modest Mouse, I can picture clear as day going to Coney Island with Liz and Zane (in a stroller) in the summer of 2005 and watching Modest Mouse in some kind of crazy concrete pit while eating street meat. I remember heavily tatted men and women telling us how cute our little baby boy was. Good times.

No bucks this year, but what a hunt. I've never seen as many does as I saw this year. Unit 34A is where it's at. I'll be back next year and hopefully I'll be able to stay more than two days.

And thus ends my winning streak of voting for the winning presidential candidate.  Every election since 1996 (for some reason I didn't vote in 1992 - bad citizen).  I knew it was a longshot for Romney to win, but I didn't think he'd lose every battleground state, but one (and pending Florida).  I also didn't think Romney would lose the popular vote by 2 million votes (at this point).  The two things I think hurt Romney the most were: 1) No Latino support and 2) Opposing the auto bailout.  #2 was a one time occurrence for the GOP, but #1 is a huge problem for them.

Here's to avoiding the fiscal cliff.  Cheers!